Saturday, May 28, 2005
im in no mood to do anything or to think about anything else... im having a migraine.
i was shocked by how i reacted just now. i swear this is the fucking first time i cried and cried after some stranger shot me so suddenly with vulgarities. it's fucking making me lose my mood for the next day. that shouldnt be the audrey. i am just so shocked because his friend was so fucking stressing on every word he/she said and i just stared blankly. not knowing what im supposed to say but the usual me would not give way. this is very serious because audrey has never been like this before. count that fella lucky. he hit me. it feels like ive lost to somebody.
and the fucking ugly thing is im having my period now. im bleeding.
went swimming this morning and i met yj at the pool then i bought meesiam back home for mama ahseria and jiejie then we watched pacifier together it was a great laugh and printed some of my lecture notes and chatted with jiejie and also felt sad for grandma and miss her loads and i jogged with jessie and then went to compass and bought files for school and then took the mrt to hougang mall to meet carol and pierced my nose. *ouch i have another fucking hole-as ugly as it sounds* bought nose studs very pretty but tell me, do i even have the fucking mood to take the two studs outta my wallet to admire and feel happy about my nose piercing? hell no.
now you know, dont try to rub it in when it's my time of the month. im so confused. am i like angry now or what. i dont know. if i am, then blame it on the vulgar language i received. but i am most shocked. very.
im fucking sorry for the over-usage of this fucking fuck word but pardon me, im not me at this point of time. and if i do offend someone, that's not my problem either. i apologised already-(read the previous sentence 10 times).
it might be a better day. everything might change. because there's drums and im going to pray for chikchik and gongong.
sleep sweet you all.
scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at
12:42 AM
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