Saturday, May 07, 2005
05.05.05it was a great day spent with ahbao, fadhil, aishah(father's girlfriend), lopez, karen(lopiak's girlfriend) and carolinaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
actually we're supposed to meet at 7.45 at the bus-stop but bloody ahbao woke up late. so we met up soooo late too! and we had macs at harbourfront center. then we were so in love with a lil eurasian boy. gosh he's so damn cute bet he'll be like hosh harnett or utt or just any prince when he grows up. went to the elements shop but it wasn't open so we went to sentosa... shopped at the beach shop and spent like an hour there. gosh. but we bought something though, ahbao and i each bought a bikini there and i bought a slipper too(: actually, i didnt intend to splurge on that bikini until we saw uncle rizal drive past us after ahbao changed into the bikini she bought... then... he said he had new stocks! so carolinaaaaaaaaaa and i rushed into the shop and browsed through everything, then when i found out the bikini i wanted had a smaller size, i bought it. on impulse. which is not a very wise thing to do-spending money. argh... thought i could get a discount from uncle rizal but that piece was already on discount haha! a pity uncle rizal came late and ahbao didnt get the discount haha!
so we were happily sleeping on the beach tanning until.... the dark clouds just had to appear and our spirits dampen and we had to hurry to the bathroom to bathe and all but the female toilet was choked!!! so we bathed in the male toilet hohoho. it's as if the whole bathroom is ours and we're taking our own sweet time with the guys outside waiting. bet they were like, "these bitches..."
it was raining monkeys and hippos when we waited for the beach line. but we managed to get back to the harbourfront center and went back to the elements shop. bought a puma bag! ahhhh! it's damn pretty now to think of it. thought it was quite common at first but i really like it though... then we headed down to town where we met up with lopiak and karen (:
went to levi's taka and ah bao bought the diva jeans(the one which costs $219.50) and another levis handbag. hmmm pretty pretty but she's not fitting in the diva.. she's gonna keep it just cause it's limited edition. hoho.
then we made our way to fareast... and ahbao bought her jacket and she seemed happy to finally own one (: good. then we went to buy watermelon. my daily dosage(oh i had them too just yesterday) of fruit. walked to leftfoot. and carolina bought her puma sneaks! it's damn chic! with red base and navy blue stripe. waddya think? hmmmm and i think i shall save up and buy another dunks or sneaks. i need a new pair seriously. im getting tired of those at home. argh. and our coat, yes carolinaaaaaaa??
then we went to nubar! had sucha great bonding time together with aishah and fadhil... took a whole lot of photos too but i'll upload them up whenever im free ya?
finally it was time for us to part. sigh... hope the next gathering is just right away! it should be another karoke session... yonks man!
YESTERDAY.
slept till about 12 and that's another sin.
dad came and picked me up. we went to tp and handed in all the dued forms. and im glad ive finally done it cause if you noticed, i took a long time to do so. haha! then we went to the bank at tampines west and settled some stuffs.. then we bought roti and ate it in the car. went to Dr Lim and took some medicine. Then, not knowing where to go, daddy drove to s'goon, wanting to buy some oranges but to no avail, no oranges! then we saw a chik-chik look alike..... he's our neighbour actually. sigh. just ten more days.
went to compass and met up with phoebe, then we met weikang, shihui, and finally timothy for HOUSE OF WAX. it wasnt a bad show. afterall those screams and dumb remarks timothy and eric made in between the shows made us laugh like cows. though being on the first row is damn
irritating, it was fun it was fun! oh yes and i wonder how's eric now.. hmmmm
came back home straight after. daddy picked me up at compass point.
ten more days to his 2nd anniv. i really miss him. i do. regretted so much for leaving him in the lurch and rejecting him. felt the pain in my heart when all he wanted to do on his verge of death was to see both my sister and i for the last time. tearing wont help. we cannot bring the dead to life. but i cried. loud. sorrowfully. how i wished i could turn back time. and tell him he was the greatest uncle even though he didnt show us that he deserved the respect, he wasnt responsible, he wasn't a role model, he didnt show us how much he had loved us. i felt it till the end, just when he was about to leave us. his love sort of grows in me. do you understand really? he knew his life was about to end. just one week before, he came back to his own home(sweet home). and lived in there, until he weakened slowly and collapsed, begging us to call the ambulance. and he wouldnt so willingly do so in the case that he might be handed over to the police if he was found dealing with drugs. this was the time. ahhh it shocked us. straight he went to ICU. listen.. not the normal wards. ICU. he was in pain. he was praying to the lord. he wanted to live so much. he regretted. he wanted to see his family and dear friends. he wanted to see cindy and audrey. he knew he was in the wrong. he knew everything.... few nights later, the priest came, and there he was beside my dearest uncle, praying with him. but then, about two nights later, my sister and i went to visit my uncle. we were in the car when godma told us not to feel fearful of chik-chik because he's bloated, he's only surviving on the oxygen pump, his skin is dark in colour and there are thousands of pipes on him. ok yes we promised we wouldn't. in my heart, i was hurt by what godma said, because i finally feel for chikchik. i knew he couldnt be helped and he might just slip away from our lives that night... we were very nervous in his ward. for the first time, jie and i kept calling him, "chikchik.. chikchik.. wake up ok...?" but daddy said..."ah teck.. if you go, just rest assured... ok. do not worry. everyone loves you.. i love you.." by then, i was about to tear.. but i controlled myself. then we saw blood flowing out of his mouth, with a big fat pipe stuck out of it. He was listening to us. We realised, for nights, he's been waiting for this moment. he wanted to go. he wanted to feel free so much.. but he lived on and bore the pain.. just to see my sister and i. after the doctor checked on him, he said something which we didnt hear but we knew it was that time we have to bid goodbye. we were beside his bed when he left us... my heart sank. i was so unprepared. everything wont be the same.. i miss you so much and i miss you so bad... even till now, we're sorry but grandma still doesnt know.
i miss you so bad
i wont forget you; oh it's so sad
i hope you can hear me
cus i remember it clearly
the day you slipped away
was the day i found it wont be the same.....
i miss you
sorry i did a bad job being your niece
i was unfaithful, a brat
hope you can forgive me
we miss you so much
do know that everyone misses you too
especially daddy.. and mama
we love you.. love you my dear uncle.
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