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Sunday, June 27, 2004

Yay! Yet another new template! It expresses so much of Audrey now eh? I cant wait to continue guitar lessons wit Daddy and Jie.

So netherlands won. I've expected that to happen hah! Let's look at the bets i've settled____

-Nick on netherlands>10 bucks
-Earl on netherlands>a lunch WITH ISABEL & FLORENCE :)
-Brent on netherlands>10 bucks BUT till full time :)
-Marcus on netherlands>10 bucks?

i'm so gonna burn my pocket money. haha! ISABEL MY 5 BUCKAROOS!

mummy and daddy came over with lunch. vegetarian foods sure rock. i'm a lil in need of a diet. i've grown huge again. holidays are for me to bum, eat, sleep, and not doing any productive so pardon me for this lols.

Jie received her third rejection letter from SMU. i tell you their english sure sucks awrite. hmphf!

School is starting. WOKAY STOP REMINDING ME.

My Monster bro told us a freaking ghost story about girls and their periods last night and the fact that my period came by just str8 after euro is scaring me. BRENT YOU WATCH IT. you've promised on being my pad and cookie supplier and you be sure you do your job. i'll skin you alive if you dont.

Conference last night was ultra boring. everybody was silent. i hate this. no life at all. and i've no idea what to add on the the conversation too. So when it was so packed and eugene has to wait for somebody to get off the conference line so that he cud get in, i decided i'll just offer the vacancy for my lil son. HAHA what a nice mother i can be!

WOKAY i go now. bye! enjoy school everyone! anybody who needs studying therapy please contact me and we'll study tgt wokay. bye!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 2:38 PM
2:38 PM

Saturday, June 26, 2004

I just need a guy,
who can cheer me up when i'm down,
who can be the one i see when i wake up,
who can be the one who just holds my hand,
who can cheer up my day
perk me up
lift me up
drags me along to fun places
whats wrong with that?
i dont ask for anything much.

NEVERMIND I'M NUTS I'M CRYING FOR NUTS.

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 9:49 PM
9:49 PM

THIS IS THE PICTURE I PUT IN MY BLOG WHY WONT YOU SHOW UP YOU KLUTZ?!

I'M STAYING AT AH MA HSE TONIGHT. YAY. SOCCER MATCH'S GONNA ROCK. WIT FOOD ARND ME.

I USE THE FRIES TO EAT MY CHOPSTICKS I USE MY CHOPSTICKS TO EAT MY FRIES HAHA PLEASE LAUGH.

PAMELA YOU BELLY FARNNY. I LUB CHEW ALOT EWE KNOW.

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 8:46 PM
8:46 PM

i feel super sad! pamela may not be back on my birthday! sigh. why is everything so against me?

finally, my pts called and asked me out for dinner. i cant! my blardy sister didnt allow me to cause it's too late. she says it's ~~dangerous~~. com'on who wud want to rape me?! FLOR WE GO STUDY TMR WOKAY. +)

did geog. everybody say wow. it's pretty surprising i started on my homework. hehs.

i'm really pissed cause the pictures i've hosted cant show on both blogs!(mine and daflordabeldadrey's) this is ultra maddening! Rar~

ok to end off, it wudn't be a soft note_______
RACHEL. I WANT TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH YOU SUCK TO THE VERY INNER CORE. YOU ARE SUCHA BIATCH THAT I WANT TO CHOMP ON YOU TRILLION TIMES. HOW CAN YOU JUST BACKSTAB EVERYONE? HAVE YOU NO BRAINS? HAWHAW I PITY YOU. FROM NOW YOU DO YOUR THING AND WE'LL DO OUR THING. STOP BOTHERING US. YOU'RE SICK. YOU'RE SUCHA PAIN IN MY ASS PLEAASE. OH PLEASE.

GUYS JUST SUCK. urgh. somebody make me like a guy please. i'm not falling for any guys. PROLLY THAT'S THE REASON WHY I'M STILL SINGLE :X

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 8:02 PM
8:02 PM

woke up this morning wit a terrible tummy ache and off i rushed to the toilet to do my business. Jie came to daddy's hse to fetch me to mama hse. She's decided to settle in a British University in August. Hope she gets in!

Alex and i are discussing about my future. I've finally made up my mind to go to Temasek poly to study design. i have the potential for designing yeah. Jie found out about all this! She agrees with me! haha. Too bad mummy aint quite happy about me getting into a polytechnic. Sigh. MOTHERS. Alex's telling me all about the designing courses in TP and i'm like so mesmerized i wanna get outta secondary sch and quickly get to poly! hahahhhahha.

So bored at home. gotta finish homeworks. hell. ok i go upload some more pix for the moment..

until then. kick me.

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 11:39 AM
11:39 AM

Friday, June 25, 2004

Hurray Portugal won! Isabel my 5 buckaroos dont forget! xp i think i'm falling in love wit Ronaldo. hah! he looks so cute!

we had a conference last night(or rather this morning) on daddy's phone. darhling bel cudn't call us bcuz her bro kept using the phone. GUYS. Annoying. :p it was a rather nice chat overall with eugene, marcus, shijie and pts. Hees.

I'm still feeling so shagged now. urgh. i need some more slp.

Jie and i drove to HM to rush up some business we got here. Life Without koo and godma is indeed torturous. sigh- We had to buy the 5kg box and fit Godma's winter clothes in and then hurry fly it to Japan. and grocery shopping for ahma hse is up to the two temporary "bread-winners" at home. many letters have to be posted and Jie is so busy finding jobs arnd, typing resumes and sending applications. poor her. May almighty God shower his blessings on us please.

Bought lunch back home. My grandma's getting weaker and weaker each day. I feel so solemn looking at the way she takes actions. My heart aches whenever i see her like that. Unlike Brent's grandma, who's still so active at this age of 72. She looks so cheerful and full of live. Peers, i ask yall for your kind prayers and hope God will continue to bless her yeah? thanks for the previous prayers too yupz?

Some guys really suck. please. stop annoying me will ewe? i didnt thought things wud turn out so scary. i hate guys who does things that way. Go get a motherfucking life will you? stop pestering me. You do what you're supposed to do and i do what i'm supposed to do. That's what i care about. Off you go.

Pamela: Without you in my life, helping to get everything going on so smoothly, i wudn't be here moving on so strongly. Thanks for everything. You're just one in a billion trillion (: ily+

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 4:22 PM
4:22 PM

Thursday, June 24, 2004

yeah i'm done! haha the official florence, isabel and audrey's blog is now on! the babes

first up i wanna say smthg belly important to my darhlingest songzi:)

sweetie!-this hols good? hee i miss you! we havent been out! nvm i love you still. sorry about yest man. lols i was in sucha rush. samtan was hungry and we quickly walked to rm to have macs for breakfast. haha! anyway you feel special? cos amongst those who tagged me you're the only one whom i specially wrote this to you. i love you! haha. you look real pretty you know?! prolly cause i havent seen you for 239283471 years. haha! ~~can't wait for sch to start..~~ haha. you takecare wokay? cant wait to see you!!!!!

cool aint it? hees. an update on yesterday. Mdm rahima brought her lil pinky to school again. in case you didnt know, lil pinky is her daughter's name. so cute right? she has such huge and pretty eyes that i want to kidnap her :x it's mission impossible i know ;) it's rather boring cos she released us at 9.30 and she started lessons at 8.45! how shit can it be?!

then i went back home to change and went to hougang polyclinic to meet up with my part-time stead, FLORENCE! haha yes we were officially steads yesterday. isabel is jealous and i certainly think shijie would be haha! ok enough. then the bloody queue was long so we went hougang mall to get brent's pressie. bought him an adidas shirt. then flor had a sanitary pad and she suggested that to be brent's birthday card. he likes it! hehe. then we went to the library to scribble smthg on that 'card'. making sure that all children and adults wudn't see. haha!

oh yes and we walked to and fro from the clinic to HM many times. dont ask us why. we were dumb yesterday.

then we walked to pts's old hse and then to the busstop to meet up wit bel. flor was sad. haha.

oh yes and while having lunch i saw a bastard that nobody wants to see but i have the urge to see his shitty face i dont know why so dont ask me i'm very raged and am still.

took 55 to brent's hse and damn. we missed so many stops. bloody brent. haha!

so his birthday was great lah. except i find that his friends are somehow very anti-social. hmmm. isabel and i went for a swim in the pool and i have thought of drowning myself for some reasons you wudn't wan to know. his pool is 2.15 metres deep mind you. everything was fine. no girls to rape though. we cant. the other 2 girls came with their boyfriends. you tell me, how to rape leh? haha. the food was superb too. oh and his hse's so biiiggg! compared to mine, mine's atrocious BUT! neater! brent's a lazy pig that's why. haha. we stuck the pad on his wall, making sure it's high so that he cudn't reach lah. then wet his bed wit our shorts so wet. stole money from his wallet. wet his floor. all the nuts you can think of is what we did. that's great aint it?

he ripped my bracelet! goddamn brent. anyway, the bracelet's broken for good. save the memories. bad memories. :) then erh,, brent initally wanted to pull us into the pool. but we pushed him down first! so fun. then bel went in wit him and i have florence to thank for for saving me....without the bracelet though haha. then the birthday song. the guys didnt sing we sang! we're great friends wokay. haha. then smashing cake was my fave at every party of course and yups i smashed the dumb bdae boy. and i forgot to pull his shorts down! like what pammie and i wud do at every boys' bdae bash! goddamn.

ok so enough said lah. i'm belly tired of typing. haha. awrite ciao. until laters!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 2:38 PM
2:38 PM

today's gonna be a busy day for me, sitting down here, working wit the computer. bear wit me, computer, i've got loads of work to do, to touch up daflordabeldadrey's blog ;) and many stuffs. ok ciao! until laters!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 12:21 PM
12:21 PM

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

11th June '04

enjoy this for the time being awrite.

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 5:47 PM
5:47 PM

it's confirmed. i'm not going to the Linkin Park's concert. I'd rather give it to a more crazy fan who is so in need of it. Thanks ashton! haha this boy ah. he's giving me so much stress that i must go cut my hair tmr. because he says my hair's in a mess. stupid! anyway, i hope that belle will enjoy herself!~

ok i've like uploaded some of the pictures. it's taking it's own dumb sweet time and i'm falling asleep at any time. haha.

tomorrow's Brent's birthday. I wonder i should go because he doesn't know me and i dont know him! So ironic! and we're only met once. furthermore, i'd be so unwelcomed leh,,, perhaps just get him a pressie will do yeps? haha. ok i'm thinking alot.

bye!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 4:37 PM
4:37 PM

heyho to all cows dogs and monkeys.

whatever.

i feel like going berserk. i'm purposely acting psychic.

..prolly cause i dont wanna think about many other stuffs happening

these days have been good, and also bad. in my life, bad stuffs tend to be a must-happen. Yes God? you made me have that fate. Thank you. You're giving me these, just to make me grow stronger each day. I can take them. i'm gonna be headstrong. I aint gonna blame you. It's a challenge to me, i understand. I do...

Last saturday's picnic was OK. the guys were so not not not enthusiastic eh? Especially Earl Grey Tea! He's sucha letdown! *shakeshead_______ haha i know he's reading this. [note the sarcasm] anyway, my brownie turned out chao ta... like again! but florence and all still enjoyed them. weirdos but well, it shows that i've at least reached the skill of producing good brownies.. yes yes? captain's ball and 007 are two things that cannot be missed. haha. florence's still so shy wit shijie. or vice versa? haha. dont shy lah you two are meant to be. and MARCUS HIT MY HEAD! what a gentleman. he didnt even apologised! hmphf! then we went to white sands and slacked majorly. in the library and all. haha! bel and cheryl went churching oredi. so it's left wit me, flor, sok and coreen. and yes coreen was so embarrased. HOR COREEN? the book? haha. oh and and nico too! hee. i love em to bits!

and Last sunday was DAddy's day! mummy had to work. so sad. but we accompanied koo, mama and arseria to compass. daddy and i. then while we were walking to mos to meet them, they announced koo's vehicle number and sth sth. i wasnt aware until i heard the number. they said we're not spozed to park our car at the handicap parking lot but we did asked for permit! then we came to realise that while jie was using the car, she covered the permit wit the road tax.. lols.. so funny!

then daddy and i went to fetch mummy, then jiejie. then we went to east coast to makan! wee! i love the food there! i was thinking of going there on my birthday. that'll help everybody who've tight pockets. hmmmm.. anyhows, HAPPY FATHERS' DAY DADDY!

Yesterday i went to grace's godpa's hse. we played squash where i sucked at it! i was rusty! then we were gyming for an hour or so and then we went for a 15min sauna. then we were hungry and went to causeway and i wanted to eat yakun roti toast so much and tadah! we had it! it was a cool day out and i love my girl :)

today was fine. geog in the morning as usual. then had mos wit liying, meixian, drey and seow ying. meixian, thanks for chilling me down and thot of a solution for me. i love you.

i guess there's not much left for me to say about our friendship now. it's tasteless oredi. i dont really feel much about anything. I've become so numb. our ties have slipped away. i'm sure we can get back together. but i doubt our closeness. sorry girls but i love yall for the past times still (:

hey.. not like they're gonna read this though, but haha. i'm talking to myself! Audrey has contracted psychosis. HELP!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 1:45 PM
1:45 PM

Friday, June 18, 2004

i just read through an email sent by the wonderful girl jesmine. it really made me feel so full of emotions and i nearly teared. this is just one of the emails i've recived that's touched my heart. i just wanna thank jesmine for those times she's been there for me. i love you girl. and i wanna thank all others, like carolina, florence, isa, amelia pamela and amanda. i love you girls! some idiotic guys too x)

here it goes..
heys drey!
surprised ba? jesmine the great is here to mail u. hahaha. wells, i shant crap furthur on. shall get back to business. *wheee

i know and can see that you are in doldrums for the past few months - over friendship. friendship is the vital source of happiness and joys as well as emotional disasters when problems cropped up.
actually i have got five words for you, 'dont grieve over it anymore'. instead, you have her to thank for. it's her and actions who shows you the true meaning of real friends. you said she backstabbed people including yourself. seriously, there's no existence of such a word 'backstab' in the dictionary of true good friends. instead they will try all means to protect you, and they too would be the ones to point out your mistakes to you - with the intention to help you and not humiliate you. however in your case, it doesnt seems that way.

i do believe in horoscopes. both you and i are cancerians. one thing about us is that we tend to make friends pretty easily, but also, lose them easily upon betrayal and when we lose trust in them. we are the sensitive kind. trying to bring back this friendship may be a waste of effort. i'm not asking you to give up this friendship. but think, her character is like that. it's hard for her to understand you as seen in those incidents so far. no matter what you do, she will think it in another way round, and misunderstandings occur more and more often. for example, in michelle's case, u meant well and the truth was there, but she regards it otherwise. also, if you guys do get back together as good friends, would you place as much trust in her as you did before? the scars are there already. only u and yourself will have the answer.

audrey, i want to tell u that u are a very wonderful and beautiful girl. dont let a failed friendship get you and rob away your cheerful self and your great smile. although it's hard to accept the truth, it hurts, i know, but you can take it as a lifelong lesson. dont be tied down by her and be depressed over it. remember what mrs chan say? god is there to look after us. all these incidents happen for a good reason. it let you see the good and ugliness of friendships and it may help you get on with life better in the future. this time, choose your friends wisely. we only have 6 months' time in sjc, moreover this year is a really important one. so why not? keep yourself happy and enjoy the rest of your time in sjc, and work really hard for o's levels? dont let this failed friendship rule your emotions. remember. u are not alone. there's always someone out there who cares and loves u. your sister is one. pammie oso.(though i dont know who) and there's still me! buahaha and loads more out there!

i really do hope that you will get over it soon. make a choice that you feel you will be happy and satisfied with. holding onto it will lead no where. alrite? i look forward to going out with you darhling! hahas. but wait till i save up enough first. :)) hees. takkaire *mwahhs

love always,
jesmine-
end

aint it beautiful? Life is beautiful. you always wud want to take a bigger step to know what's the future. but brooding over it is actually no use. my future aint what i'm looking for now. the past too.

Take Each Day, One At A Time
One day at a time-this is enough.

Do not look back
and grieve over the past,
for it is gone.

Do not be troubled
about the future,
for it has yet to come.

Live in the present,
and make it so beautiful
that it will be worth
remembering.

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 11:22 AM
11:22 AM

Thursday, June 17, 2004

this thursday's not too bad at all....

jie messaged me and asked me where i am while i was havin amath lesson. daddy and her thot that i ponned sch. cos nooraisha and all the welfare gang were havin a meeting at 9. of course, i wudn't want to miss any integration lesson. or else. haha. then noor thot i didnt attend the meeting. she then called daddy. man.. haha. So zilei thought of smthg called mouldy. so funny! haha.. i shall keep it low for the moment :)

then jie fetched me from school and we both went to hougang mall to get her glamour shots collected, and sent her job applications to CAAS. beautiful photos :) she gave me one though, then we each put each other's faces on our wallets. hees..

we had macs for lunch but i didnt order anything cos i wasnt feeling hungry. then again! i saw yip liming! i just saw her a few days back! it's like we're fated or so. lols. she's so tall and looks so much like a Jap. haha jie cudnt stop laughing at how fate has brought us to see each other everytime we go to hougang mall.. haha.. then we bought nonya dumpling for mama. slurps- flor, isa and i had some bites too. x)

then i met flor first. then isa. the sun was so super duper friendly! i love the sun! heehee.. then we dived and dived. the water is always getting into my nose. but it was a cool date wit the two girls :)

then they came up to mama hse. we were taking so many shots that we got tired and decided to leave for nasi lemak at heartland. haha! it was marvellous! then when flor finished, her plate was so empty, so light, that the plate just flew and hit me! and the rice and chilli all spilled over me! it was so embarrasing wokay! haha.. then we went for a walk in the mall and felt so boring later on.. off we went back home..

*pause_____
jie is back! i kept teasing her though. she bought for me a strawberry and chocolate cake! my favourite dessert! heehee.. i'm gonna enjoy it while watching euro. hehs.

ok i'm gonna pon amath cos no more integration tmr. phew!

and i'm meetin siyuen for makan and movie. and amath therapy.

oh ya! daddy taught me how to play the electric guitar yesterday! jie's gonna teach me the other chords today! i love the guitar all of a sudden! he said he'd be buying another folk guitar for jie. and then a drum for me next year. hmmm. i should save up and buy the drum myself shouldn't i?

daddy's day this sunday! wee! jie and i thought of buying him a timberland shirt, or a pair of pants. mummy suggested socks. lols! then we'll be going for dinner. like what we used to do every father's day. i love my daddy. he's just one of the best daddys in the world. he may seem to be annoying and always suspicious of my whereabouts but yeah. whose dad doesnt? he's just overprotective. but we still love him :)

ok bye!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 9:02 PM
9:02 PM

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

>Hello hello hello........at last, found some time to write to all of
>you.
>Arrived safely on June 10 at around 4pm and stayed in Tokyo until
>Sunday.
>Took a one and half hr domestic flight to Chitose airport, Hokkaido
>and then another 1 hr 15mins train ride to Date city where I will be
>living.
>The hotel is in Toya, which is another 30 mins drive by car/public
>transport.
>Sounds very very far isn't it? that's actually very common here in
>Japan.
>I understand that Koo will be away for a week....
>Take good care, God Bless and love to all at home.
>Will be writing to Jie2 Ai/Mei Koo also.
>My e-mail address remains the same.

hello godma!

life's ok at home dont worry ok!

jie and i went for grocery yest and we bought 17 dollars of grocery. so cheap! how come you all can buy till 100 over?!??!!

mama is belly good dont worry oso!

daddy mummy oso good!

me and sister belly good!

she's driving me to my friend's chalet. so nice sister i have! haha!

you must really take good care of yourself. you're travelling arnd! how is uncle mas? help me send my regards to him. tell him to take many care too. wear more clothes to warm up wokay.

hoping that o levels will vanish and you can come back and visit us!!!!!!

byebyebyebyebyebye

audreychenmeixian

PS:today's therapist is shannybaby. she just called :) GOOD.

hahaha!!!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 6:44 PM
6:44 PM

boredification!

didnt go canoeing yest cos there weren't enuff khakis. then we went hopping arnd the guys' chalets. first to J then to I. mathilda is really mischievious. man, she got us into a damn embarrassing moment yesterday. I's teacher found a pack of cigar in mathilda's bag. but she denied it aint hers. isabel was so raged that she scolded her like hell in front of so many pple. sigh, how long more will mathilda realise that so many pple actually cared for her? i have no right to interfere though..

and I's teacher's a bitch! haha! she stayed on that chalet for so long! we cudn't even snatch some food! then we decided to chill at J's chalet. the guys were really restless. haha but ahem, like hello? wit florence and isabel, everything went out fine. we played captain's ball and monkey. so fun! that 'mi xue' so funny too. lols. eugene macham small boy liddat. haha.

then we went to kfc for our dinner. i cant wait to get to www! haha. jie and i was staring at the do's and dont's. we ended up cracking up like mad cha-bos cos they stated no flippers, snorkelling goggles and all funnaye stuffs. lols..

today was fine. jie fetched me from sch. went compass to have deli. it was a nice lunch. she loves me. (: then we bought lunch for mama and arseria.

wokay i think i gtg. amath! here i come!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 6:24 PM
6:24 PM

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

heylo. first of all, i miss pamela like hell ):

amath was fine but i think mrs ng went realli slow. had breakie wit grace today too. now i'm going canoeing and sister insisted on fetching me. lols.

yesterday was maryann's bdae party. jie fetched flor and i there. before tat we went for a swim. everyday our swim session gets hippier wit the sun :)

ok so happy 16th maryann and isabel! haha.

now i'm addicted to reader's digest. it's damn funnaye how some editors write stories on real life accounts. lols. you'll sure laugh when you read.

grandma is fine :) i love her. oh and jie and i planned a day out wit grandmama. we'll prob be driving her to east coast and dine there or smthg.

koo went to hongkong. till friday :( missing her.

godma went to japan oredi. sigh. and we've got to send her some winter clothes. hopes she's fine!

wokay i gtg. until later. heehee..

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 1:27 PM
1:27 PM

Saturday, June 12, 2004

haha thanks pammie! hope you liked the armani exchange bag we so secretly bought it for you?! hiek.. i love you! dinner was great! mini golf still sucks lah but pool rocks! heehee! cant believe you're leaving so soon.. tmr! urgh. do come back to visit us. haha you cant watch bend it like beckham and euro! bleh xp! oh oh and dankew belly much dear for THE LINKIN PARK TICKETS!!@#!$!~!#$!# i love you a million~!!!!!!!

yesterday was sucha fine day. went swimming early in the morning. then went shopping with florence, isabel, coreen and sam tan! they tell silly jokes that make you laugh your ass off.. haha! so funnaye.. and i wanna buy many many stuffs! the converse shoe! jie says she'll buy both lah cos both oso nice +) den the khaki bag! it looks like a sweet and it's super cool! haha! den the roxy pants! weee! i'm going shopping later with jie but i have to study now :)

ah ma is fine. gosh i love her so much. sometimes her blurrified face scares me. i thought as though she's gonna leave us soon.. but never. it's something that tells me she's gonna stay wit me till my O levels are over. it's that strong feeling. of LOVE of course. she many be a lil senile but i know she still loves me. that's what i care about now. nothing matters as much as my family's love :)

ok.. i go now bye!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 11:51 AM
11:51 AM

Thursday, June 10, 2004

My dear princess,

thanks! i love you. you're a special friend to me too. i apologise for whatever things that happened in my life. and it has troubled you. something like rachel's stuffs and some stoopid guys' stuffs. see,,, guys are useless sometimes... but betta then MUTHAFUCKIN BUTCHES! haha!

ok. i've read yingjie's blog. she seems to know your private blog yeah. or whatever. i do not know. she says she's disappointed in you. you said you're utterly disappointed in her. i guessED, there might be some misunderstandings. BUT the point is.. does she seem to care about you at all in the past? listen. she can do whatever to you now. say that she's disappointed and all.. dont you think that you suffered more as a friend of hers? really. she doesn't understand you well. like what melissa told you before. she guessed your friendship with her is a competition. i guess so too. but she's the one competing i could see. i have no idea why she's like that. you told me she treats you differently as she treats the others. listen again. it's either you leave her. or you get on with this. but to me, you should get on with this friendship. you two have gone thru so much. and now it's a break up i think it's really stupid. it's the second time i guess? it doesn't feel good right?

you've told me that you dont wanna lose this friend. but does she know you cared so much about her? she doesn't. cos you didnt talked it out with her. so wassup? talk to her. and she'll talk to you. unless she's a bitch. then i'll feel terribly sorry for her.

about the blog. ok so she said she's got that long ago. well i've got nuthing to say. it's weird though....

ok audrey? i love you. please come now ok please we're all waiting for you to come and go makan dinner. it's a surprise treat from my mother :) iloveyou!!!!!!!

-pammielovesyou

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 4:14 PM
4:14 PM

i just came back from a swim wit nico and flor. these two sweeties ah. damning funnaye. haha! there was this chee-ko-pek who kept following us whenever we swam to. then we kept turning away from his direction, looking out for him wherever he swam to. damn funny i tell ya. haha! i love you guys! oh yes and we saw ms neo! she's so prwetty still! so tan and.. oh so gorgeous. BABE!

it's not a bad day after all. i guess i cudn't be bothered with certain things anymore. that's a great feeling (+

grandma complained that her neck is very 'suan'. so i applied yokoyoko for her just now. she looked a lil better than the days before. cept her neck. but i guess she's doing better each day. thanks for yall's prayers! +muacks______

it's tiring to keep fit. i've been either working out myself at home, or jogging, or swimming. but it's all worth it. i've slimmed down a lil which i personally think is unneccesary lahhh. anyways, all is for keeping fit :)

i'm going to celebrate my darhling pammie's birthday later. i forgot what's the schedule! issit safra first? then makan at what hotel? i forgot! pammie! your mom's a great ladaye! sexaye too ;)

Pamela, you've been a great friend of mine since these short span of 2 years. it's lovely to spend my days with you. and the other guys too. hees. you're one of a kind. you never fight wit me over anything. instead you taught me many good stuffs lehhh. how can i ever do anything to repay you?! you're sucha goddess. thanks for your support always. you're always my one and only BEST FRIEND. Loyal as always. Sexaye as always :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAMMIE!
18 oredi. stop your wilfulness and grow up! haha! i love you!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 4:01 PM
4:01 PM

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

i'm feeling rather lethargic now. sigh. grandma's awrite. she's getting better. must be all the prayers that many of us have said. thanks guys ;) love yall.

KFC is on the dining table waiting for everyone. godma and arseria in the kitchen busy preparing fish & chips. yums. tonight's dinner's gonna be a big feast. hehs.

chinese oral was horrible. i misread alot of words. miss chia was the bitch. she was so mean and strict today, neglecting the fact that it was a holiday day. nametags on! gosh.

ok i gtg. till tmr.

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 6:55 PM
6:55 PM

It's funnaye how your "best friend" cud have the same blogskin as you. Perhaps she lifted it from the previous blog i had. haha-

It's maddening when flor told me that yingjie somehow talked about me. but she didnt mention my name though. and did i tell you that she suspected any of my friends, or rather me.. tagging her board and saying nasty things about her? can you believe it? this is it. how your best friend can become your worst enemy. well, i havent treated her as my enemy yet. it's possible to happen. the chances are like 99.9%.. but i'd rather not. you know? it's hard to add another person into your hating list and lose one from your buddying list. it's sad to do so.. i'll see.. if i can control..

i've said. i WORK with how you WORK with me. i even thought of letting the bygones by bygones but i guess it's hard now. save me from this misery someone. i just want to be a normal kid. now everybody's against the innocent kid. leave me alone if you can! stop bothering and gossipping nasty things about me! i cant stand it! hrrrr

fuck. i shouldn't give a fuck care to all this shit. it aint my fault anymore. yes? it aint! i'm backing out already. that's the best i cud do. i've let it gone out of my heart. and now it's back into my head and getting on my nerves. i need a break. seriously i need one break.

so i went for a jog today with isa. we're spozed to study but i cudnt make it earlier in the noon. mama seemed fine today except she kept coughing.. -shakes head- i hope she gets better.

furniture came today. and i was still slping. hehs.

ok good job. chenaudrey has studied physics today. so no more kickass remarks from anyone saying i'm still playing a fool and not pulling my socks. :)

i'm going to wild wild wet next monday and canoeing next tuesday! with florence! yeah! how great to have friends who still stands by you now and then. i love you puplemonkeygirlfriend!

now now. wassup with stefan and me. pple spreading rumours about us. stef has a picture of me in his hp? crazy but i guess it's true? that's what daphne told me.. -shrugs

ok so there's chinese oral from today till friday. i'm not gonna go for friday's one for sure. i'm gonna go chill with florence! yeah! so fun.. it's been a long time since i went out.. haha

so life's like that. it's pretty much full of ups and downs but it still goes on. it's how i handle the daily oohooh ahahs.. i've got to be strong. in fact i think i am. tmr i'll be meeting the pple and i'm gonna be normal. no act. it's just me.....

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 12:02 AM
12:02 AM

Monday, June 07, 2004

my greetinx to all,

i just came back from sch from my dental appointment. the dentist is really atrocious i tell ya. she came real late, like 45 mins late!?! yes and she looked real strict! so scary! haha. she cleans teeth fast. amira and mine took only like 5 mins? or less. yeah she just scraped the food out. good. i miss 4gracesters so much! saw engtheng, mich chua, waimun, song and mira. whoa so miss em!

and 6th June... it was a great day. koo, godma, jie, daddy and i made our way down to bright hill to pray for gonggong. his 7th anniv(chinese calendar) is this thursday. i still miss him. yes i do. i prayed hard for everybody in this family to stay safe and all. and koo told me that bright hill temple just changed their monk. the retiree monk was a 101 yrs old abbott! and the newly elected one is 52 yrs old. and he's trying to teach buddhism through the net and all high-technology. cool! hehs

then we went to Helping Hands to buy teak furniture for mama hse. i remember chikchik used to rehabilate there when he's on drugs. sigh.. the pple didnt recognise us though but we remember some who came to the wake last year. all are nice pple, helping chikchik through all these years. ok.

went back home for lunch. jie then drove dad and mum for a haircut. then we went to mama hse and got ready. dress up, make up.. we look like dolls. haha! i shall upload some pix soon k?

so the anonnymous couple's wedding is finally over. Nicholas and Jaime is a newly wed! the ~~FOOD~~ was okay lah. Not up to my expectation though. the shark's fin is lousy. too starchy. not nice. *giggles____ i'm so bothered about the food. it was so far not a bad dinner cos the family of 4 of us sat at table 23 with only 2 relatives of ours. four vacant seats. it's good cos i can grab the food easily, without having to snatch em. hehs. aunty sui eng and her hubby sat wit us. then next table was meilin and ailin kookoo's table. ah jiao(judith) so cute leh! nathaniel too! hah! uncle chan styled beckham's hair on nat. and he's grown fatter :X haha!

and it was a good bonding period for me and my paternal side cos i practically didnt know who is who. uncle huat, uncle cai, uncle seng all.. ALL i know now. uncle simon and aunty gladys looked great. and everybody was like so surprised i'm a big girl now. haha. anyway, it was an ironic wedding dinner cos i didnt know the couple and vice versa. so when we were taking the individual photos for each table, we just smiled and felt really awkward. i tell you, it's horrible to attend someone's wedding when you dont even know who they are. terrible! haha! but it was a nice evening :)

but something terrible happened. mama vomitted on her way to Hyatt. i was so afraid. i mean. i've never seen her like this before. i'm goddamn worried. i hope she'll be fine....

ok.. that's all for now folks. 5th aunty and gang are coming. cant wait to play with the kids! hehe! and also, i wanna study. and tan! jie wants to tan too. hha. we shall get our new bikinis soon man.. awrite bye pples!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 10:48 AM
10:48 AM

Friday, June 04, 2004

31st May 2004

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 10:44 AM
10:44 AM

hey-ho all!

how's life peeple? i guess all should be shaking legs at home or shopping-till-yall-drop during this period of great Zing-ja-pore sale?!?! haha life's pretty much going smoothly for me. i'm damning bored at home sometimes but well, i have my grandma and my sister and my aunts to perk up my day! so yes i'm bored, feel free to call me up for a chat or we can go walkwalk okie? hees...

soooo.. last saturday was Gonggong's 7th anniv.. hmmm miss him dearly.. and did i mention that my grandmama is really freaking the whole family out? yes. She's already old and forgetful. then it's like we find it hard to believe what she says at times. then there's this time wer she told us she's scared. cos there's this taiwan man who's in the hse. then he said grandpa's in heaven and asked grandma if she wanna go. luckily my grandmama said no! haha. then while we were dinnering one day, grandmama told us there's a lady in white, long haired, standing at the fan area. gosh she freaked us completely! then jie and godma didnt really believe her but i did lah. cos yeah, i just believed her. then i asked her if the lady was a bad woman she said no. so i guess the lady wudn't do anything bad.. yeah.. bless us lord :)

ok so 31st May 2004 Monday is over. OVER! but the paper was a torture. really. i hope i'll get at least a B3.. or even B4.. die! anyway, after that i was so fickle-minded.. it's to choose to go chill with yingjie and gang or just, shop with jie and godma. so i decided to chill out with the girls at cartel, praying hard that i wudn't feel the loneliness with them. it went out well actually, but there was a biiig prob. ying and phia hates michelle. i dont understand. i mean. yeah she's a nice girl. it's just her attitude that we hate but we can change that cant we? love can change anything. ok where am i dragging to.. awrite awrite so yeah mich came with us in the end. so there was phia, mel, ying, mich and i. i made sure she didnt felt lonely tho.. cartel was goood! i was so bloated after the chicken bolongnase, pizza, texas ribs and and bread. and the salmon sandwich and all.. cool food..

oh yes and we saw peiling and ian.. hmmm.. still looking same and normal..

ivy didnt go and yes i predicted so cos she's always saving money.. hrrr..

then i met up with jie, godma and koo in the evening. i cudnt find the adidas shop that they were in but yes the blur me managed to make my way there though. bought an adidas shorts, a bag -godma bought her jacket and koo bought a shirt for gyming.. we're all so cool about adidas.. haha! and guess what i still went to have supper with em! yes! so glutton! at akashi! i had the redbean icecrem** -marvellicious! haha..

tuesday was fine though.. what did i do? i forgot! oh yes i watched shrek2! it was funnaye but not that perfect though.. and i wanna watch shark tale! coming out soon :) so many movies to watch!
-shark tale
-the day after tomorrow
-eternal sunshine
-mean girls
-troy! -i havent caught it yet!

gosh.. i'm getting broke.. anyway, i bought a toga top from mango too! and a roxy pencil case which looks like banana boat.. haha! then jie bought an adidas shirt. and we bought another converse shoe! yeah! it's a limited edition mind you! haha! so cool! i love koogodmajie***!!

then wednesday was ok lah.. went to shave brows and all.. vesak day's always fine but that day's so dreadful..

then thursday i didnt go for geog lessons.. cos i knew it wud be trash. i wudnt learn anything. true enough phiax said it was boring. haha! but i'm glad i did my own study by reading thru social studies. yeah! so you see, i'm still playing my part as a nerdy student, neglecting the fact that it's the holidays.. nice kid? yeah..

and today! erh. nuthing lah.. skipped geog lessons again.. haha! going town to meet meilin koo, the kids and 5th aunty later.. so yea.. bye!!!

scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at 9:44 AM
9:44 AM