Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Gave school a miss today. basically cause im feeling lazy and i didnt study for physics test. bah! what a horrendous girl i am. olevels are a mere 4 weeks away. shits...
Sunday wasn't a nice one. Fought with Mom and Sis over trivial matters. They said i always shout whenever i talk to them. please, my voice is superduper loud. I dont shout unnecessarily. i shout over elvis presley and marilyn monroe...though they're dead i know..
So we fought and fought and fucked here and there 'bitch you!' 'you jolly well fuck off and die get off shut up lar!!' ok so dramatic. and you know what? my
darling sister thinks im spoiled by mom and dad. She says im becoming more and more jialat. get involved into fights with saint andrews boys. 'Your attitude like that no wonder the 4 boys want to fight with you!' To think that i poured my probs to you because i trusted yall, but then i guess i was stupid to do so. You fucking freaks used it to spike me.
She says i dont understand the situation at mama house because i seldom go there and all and then of course you think... after school i'll always go to grandma's place and during saturdays, i'll try my best to go visit mama. but that sister only stays at home for like 6 hours? everyday she goes off to work at 8.30, every night she has british council lessons, night classes and guitar lessons and she dares to stay out for latenight movies and supper, till 1am. who's the one who's always with mama most of the time? who's the one who really understands the old granny at home? you're barely home for days and you dare complain. shame on you. damn you ok i love grandma alot stop scolding her during meals and all. unfilial grand-daughter. i'll see how you change when godma's back. i'll see how you'll fake yourself and care for grandma. see how your pretence can fake every fucking freak. BLOODY BIATCH. you've changed and im utterly disappointed in you. you're not my lovely-always-caring-for-me sister no more! I HATE YOU FUCK OFF!
my mom is another one she.......... ok i'll spare you from my rants. just too fed-up for anything. Left home on sunday.. i was serious, i packed my stuffs and decided to go grandma's place or to nick's place. then i called sharmin. met up with her and then went to carol's place. her mom's still the best. ever so understanding.. oh my godma *kisskiss... ((: then daddy kept calling me and all... i knew he was worried. extremely worried for me so i asked him out for dinner but he didnt want. sigh... why's my dad so protective sometimes? i hate it. and i hate the times when he'll come knocking on my door and wants a conversation with me. i hate to talk to an adult. fuck the feeling it's irritating. ok then we went to have western food at the kopitiam. so shiok! then daddy came to fetch me home after that....
why's everyone's parents like that?
i hate it
seriously i love my friends more than my family, except my grandma......
alright ciao... till laterxxx
scribbled by that paralysed eskimo* at
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